Most people must have watched the movie 'The Bucketlist' and must be wondering if this is yet another similar list..Well I do wish these things happen way before I kick the bucket..:D..Am a sports crazy guy as people who have read the blogs/known me would testify..so excuse me for the excessive number of sports related wishes in my list..!
There are quite a few things I would love to do, places I would love to visit and people I so wanna meet sometime..Here's a list..
1. Lords cricket ground in London--> Not for nothing is it known as the mecca of the game. The ground has a great history, some fantastic names and performances associated with it and almost always, the dream of every cricketer is to be able to have his name on the honours board at this great stage..
2. Wimbledon centre court--> for the sheer aura it has, the remarkable sense of theatre and classic contests and players that have graced it, nothing matches the hallowed grass of Wimbledon centre court. It would be one of my life's biggest moments if I can visit it and spend sometime there..
3. Melbourne cricket ground (MCG)--> The largest of all cricket grounds..Just facing the great stands itself can be unnerving for the finest of players..also its standing among the greatest sporting arenas in the game make it one of the places I would love to visit..
4. Old Trafford, Manchester--> Known as the 'theatre of dreams', this glorious football ground is home to the most famous team of all-- Manchester United and has left many an indelible mark in the mind of football lovers worldwide..Just to watch the Red Devils play with that massive crowd cheering will be the stuff of dreams..!
5. Eden Gardens-->India's greatest sporting venue..accommodates a massive 100000 most times and the unpredictable nature of the crowd to go with their unmatched love for the game make it a must visit place for the cricket lover..
6. Barbados- Kensington oval-- This is almost all but impossible now considering that West Indies cricket is at its nadir...IF only I could sit back in a time machine and travel a good 30 odd years and watch the mighty Calypso kings hunt down every other opponent, their fast bowlers making batsmen hop and Sobers and Richards lording over attacks the world over, wow!..that would just about make my life..!
7. People I would love to meet include Brian Lara (the biggest reason for me to start watching cricket), Shane Warne (met him though not exactly a proper meeting so to say) for the very fact that he is so larger than life.
Viv Richards just to check out that swagger and Garry Sobers to admire the astonishing natural gifts he possessed..
Roger Federer and Steffi Graf who have made tennis such a joy to watch..
8. Finally, the thing I would really love and give up anything for is to be able to go back in time to relive my school and college life with my amazing pals...Truly there has been nothing like those days and I guess practically all that can happen is meeting up with all my buddies sometime in the coming years to catch up on all the great times we shared...!
Pics: Left to Right--> High School, University of Kansas (Masters) and my college in Bangalore (M.S Ramaiah Institute of Technology)..
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
In anticipation....
Another week coming to its end or rather the best part...the weekend!..as usual trying to work out what i can do different this time round to make it more interesting..am off 2 blore this time...mayb a movie, a lunch/dinner treat, get to a club with pals..(in case ur wonderin Wow..wuts up with this bugger...hold ur horses...i gotta do the driving back..lol)..i look fwd 2 these trips to blore coz thats abt the only thing that keeps me going...but yeah frm the next week on, ill hv my cuzn around in chennai and i shud hv a whale of a time...no more complaints and cribbing abt lack of pals and company..thr is a lot to check out in this city i guess and all i can say is im jus waitin big time for this weekend..
I am startin 2 feel a lot better mentally..reading sum gr8 books and slowly startin 2 feel at home..the daily irritating feel and monotony seems to be disappearing just a touch and I sure am getting a strong feel tht better things are in store in the coming few days..!
well..i dont think this blog made much sense but i sure hope that what am hoping for happens else it will be time for u people 2 struggle and read more crap about how life sucks! :D
I am startin 2 feel a lot better mentally..reading sum gr8 books and slowly startin 2 feel at home..the daily irritating feel and monotony seems to be disappearing just a touch and I sure am getting a strong feel tht better things are in store in the coming few days..!
well..i dont think this blog made much sense but i sure hope that what am hoping for happens else it will be time for u people 2 struggle and read more crap about how life sucks! :D
Friday, July 10, 2009
Time for some serious action...
The spate of rape cases in India over the last year is a matter of grave concern for everybody..Child rapes have increased exponentially and the perpetrators of this ghastly crime continue to walk away scot free almost every time due to the various loopholes in the judicial system...Only few cases manage to make it past the Police to the courts. In many cases they are held back by the victims and their families due to the fear of further oppression and embarrassment. If at all the cases do manage to get to the courts, the pitifully slow judicial system in India tends to procrastinate judgment so long that there is almost no use expecting anything meaningful to come out of the process...
It is often said that one needs to get to the grassroots level to diagnose the problem correctly..India is a vast democracy with an enormous population and the number of illiterate and uneducated in the country is huge..Uncouth and uncivilized youth roam the streets and morality is absolutely out of the window when it comes to these people..They have very little knowledge of or respect for human values and their attitude towards women is downright atrocious...The very fact that these immoral, lecherous individuals manage to get away time and again with such horrendous acts speaks volumes of the inability of the state to act right and on time..
Almost everyday we see numerous rape cases, accusations related to molestation , incidents of paedophilia and sexual assaults on tourists..All this does not really showcase the country in good light nor does it bode well for the future generation..Parents sweat and worry every minute till their girl gets back home and the fact that girls are unable to walk safely on the streets after evening really goes to show how grave the scene is..Add to this, the various loopholes in our judiciary system abet these criminals and have made them the scourge of the civilized society..
It really is high time the authorities implement a stricter form of punishment say capital punishment/life term or even the death penalty for rape..Agreed that it might sound rather harsh and death penalty is not a very acceptable form of punishment in most places..The people who do protest against capital punishments must also spare a thought for the traumatic experience of the victims and all the embarrassment that they are forced to endure during the course of the process that is supposed to provide 'justice'..There are a few nations that have very stringent laws for various crimes and death penalty definitely serves as a deterrent in those nations..I firmly believe that if and when it is enforced, the rule will surely be a major factor in helping reducing the incidences of the dastardly act that so far has been committed without an iota of fear of any grave consequences...
I sure hope the government decides to act sooner rather than later and takes certain concrete steps whilst formulating more stringent policies to control the menace that is affecting modern India..As Mahatma Gandhi said, the country can be truly envisioned as a developed one only when its women can safely walk the streets even at night without any fear..Let us strive to achieve the great man's dream!
It is often said that one needs to get to the grassroots level to diagnose the problem correctly..India is a vast democracy with an enormous population and the number of illiterate and uneducated in the country is huge..Uncouth and uncivilized youth roam the streets and morality is absolutely out of the window when it comes to these people..They have very little knowledge of or respect for human values and their attitude towards women is downright atrocious...The very fact that these immoral, lecherous individuals manage to get away time and again with such horrendous acts speaks volumes of the inability of the state to act right and on time..
Almost everyday we see numerous rape cases, accusations related to molestation , incidents of paedophilia and sexual assaults on tourists..All this does not really showcase the country in good light nor does it bode well for the future generation..Parents sweat and worry every minute till their girl gets back home and the fact that girls are unable to walk safely on the streets after evening really goes to show how grave the scene is..Add to this, the various loopholes in our judiciary system abet these criminals and have made them the scourge of the civilized society..
It really is high time the authorities implement a stricter form of punishment say capital punishment/life term or even the death penalty for rape..Agreed that it might sound rather harsh and death penalty is not a very acceptable form of punishment in most places..The people who do protest against capital punishments must also spare a thought for the traumatic experience of the victims and all the embarrassment that they are forced to endure during the course of the process that is supposed to provide 'justice'..There are a few nations that have very stringent laws for various crimes and death penalty definitely serves as a deterrent in those nations..I firmly believe that if and when it is enforced, the rule will surely be a major factor in helping reducing the incidences of the dastardly act that so far has been committed without an iota of fear of any grave consequences...
I sure hope the government decides to act sooner rather than later and takes certain concrete steps whilst formulating more stringent policies to control the menace that is affecting modern India..As Mahatma Gandhi said, the country can be truly envisioned as a developed one only when its women can safely walk the streets even at night without any fear..Let us strive to achieve the great man's dream!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Ecstasy and Despair...
Life can be very cruel is an oft-repeated statement. Yesterday, on the hallowed grass of Wimbledon, watching one man leap in joy and another sink in despair, this seemed to make all the more sense. Sport in general has been known to make heroes and villains in an instant and make or break a man's resolve. There are occasions though when you really feel that there is such a thin line between the ecstasy of triumph and the despair that comes with defeat. Having watched the classic contest between Roger Federer and Andy Roddick yesterday, one could not help but admit that the tennis Gods had been rather unkind at least this one time.
When the two players walked onto centre court of the greatest tennis stage in the world, they climbed down the staircase, the wall above it bearing Rudyard Kipling's immortal line from his poem 'If'--> "For if you can meet triumph and disaster and treat those two impostors just the same.". Was it really possible to be that way? We were just about to find out. Andy Roddick had contested two previous Wimbledon finals in 2004 and 2005 and on both occasions had come up short against the very same opponent. His record was an unimpressive 0-7 in Grand Slams and Federer led 18-2 overall which made facing him a very daunting prospect indeed. The American though was a more complete player since his horror run last year and was hugely inspired by his excellent coach Larry Stefanki. Vijay Amritraj said it perfectly that Centre court had the ability to either demoralize or inspire a player and the latter is what it did to the gritty American.
In the semi finals, Andy Roddick had crushed the hopes of a nation when he vanquished Andy Murray. He had mixed up his game beautifully, combining excellent baseline play with brilliant volleying at the net and had come up trumps against the Scot. His main weapon, the serve was holding up remarkably and with him having a first serve percentage in the 70's, it was always going to be difficult to play him. Roger Federer though had not had any problems on any front till then and he had faced Roddick's serve before and treated it with total disdain. This match seemed headed only one way.
The great Swiss's inexorable march to tennis immortality had very few hurdles. One of the big ones was eliminated even before the tournament started with Rafael Nadal, the man who had dethroned Federer from his lofty perch last year in an epic battle withdrawing due to tendinitis in his knee. Roger Federer had also won the only slam that was missing in his collection by trouncing Robin Soderling at Roland Garros. All through the two weeks of Wimbledon, it seemed like Federer lifting the trophy would be a mere formality.
When the battle commenced on centre court, the early signs were that it was Federer who was nervous. He was making a few uncharacteristic errors while Andy Roddick was playing some terrific tennis whilst making some tremendous passing shots. At 5-6, Federer's serve wilted and the American capitalized on a couple of lapses winning the first set 7-5. This was only the second set conceded by Federer in the entire tournament and the crowd realized they were in for a contest. A host of big names including tennis legends Rod Laver, Bjorn Borg, Pete Sampras (whose record of 14 grand slams was in danger of being eclipsed, Hollywood stars Woody Allen, Russell Crowe, the former American diplomat Henry Kissinger, the great Indian batsman Sachin Tendulkar and the Manchester United boss Alex Ferguson watched this big game and this had perhaps made Federer a little nervous.
The second set went with serve as was expected. Roddick's serve stood the test and was turning out to be a potent force. In the tie break he forced a couple of loose shots and at 6-2, he had 4 set points to take a 2-0 lead against the Swiss. In these moments of adversity do true champions stand out as was demonstrated by Federer. Riding on a single misjudgment by Roddick when he put a volley out, Federer served his way back and after a couple of rallies, a wide backhand by Roddick had given Federer the set and a new lease of life. The American knew that he had squandered a golden opportunity.
The third set once again went to a tie break and despite a couple of nervous moments, Federer calmly closed out the break 7-5. He had taken a two set to one lead and it seemed like curtains for the fighting American. The Roddick of few years back would have folded by then but not the new rejuvenated and fitter version. He served even better than before wriggling his way out of trouble and got a crucial break of serve with a great backhand pass forcing Federer to net the volley. He held his nerve and served out the fourth set 6-3.
The fifth set got underway and by now it was not just a test of skill but also the will power and mental strength. No tie breaks were possible and people knew it was all about the one moment of brilliance or madness that would decided this extraordinary contest. The games went on and on and in one game at 15-40 late in the set, Federer stared at defeat. He brought out two of his finest serves and then closed out that game yet again showing the stuff champions are made of. Roddick continued to torment Federer with his serve and overall game and he started his serve with the score reading 14-15. The set had by itself gone over 90 minutes, easily the longest set in Wimbledon history. Federer started off with a good return forcing Roddick to net the ball. A bad error from the American made it 0-30 and now the pressure was right on him. Three great serves made it 40-30 and then Federer pulled it back to deuce. Another error from Roddick brought Federer to match point and in the most unfortunate way for the classic to end, a Roddick mishit sailed out giving Roger Federer his 15th Grand Slam and sixth Wimbledon title taking him past the legendary Pete Sampras. Roddick was crushed and Federer was ecstatic. Everybody felt that Roddick had played the better game and deserved the trophy every bit as the champion did. As is usually the case, champions revel in crises and Federer did when it mattered the most. In the second set tie break and the final game which turned out to be the only game he conquered the Roddick serve, he raised his pkay and won the pivotal moments on which the fate of the match hung. It was a cruel way to end for the American star who had given it everything he had and more. He could never have played a better game of tennis and yet he lost.
Ever gracious in defeat and never one to lose his sense of humour, Roddick won more fans than ever before. Roger Federer had triumphed on the day and created history and the joy was all his, but in this historic moment in the game, Andy Roddick had done himself proud with his remarkable fighting qualities and brilliant display of tennis not to mention his impeccable sporting quality that made him so endearing to the tennis lover.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
My top reads...
I have always loved to read a wide variety of books and hate dwelling on a particular genre such as fiction..My interest lies in sports, history, medicine, mythology and of course fiction and classics...Of late I have found a lot of time as I stay alone and books seem to be the best way of passing time..Here is a set of books that I have read over the last year or so and found them particularly good..Hope you guys read them too and lemme know how you feel..
1. India after Gandhi by Ramachandra Guha
I am in the process of reading it and this is one of the few books that I decided to buy without a second thought. Truly an impeccable account of modern Indian history full of fascinating information, great descriptions of the personalities who have shaped our history and overall very delightfully written. I would highly recommend this brilliant work by a man who is undoubtedly one of the most knowledgeable and erudite scholars to grace our country...
2. Indira- The biography of Indira Gandhi by Katherine Frank
A fantastic book. Indira Gandhi has for long been a name that is associated with intrigue, controversy, amazement and what not. This work really does help one get to understand the great lady and know more about her political career and personal life. Very well researched and written.
3. Head on-The autobiography of Ian Botham
Ian Botham's autobiography. What could be more interesting for a die hard cricket fan? Botham's achievements and genius together with his antics on and off field including the numerous controversies and allegations make for a riveting read..a book I would definitely suggest for anyone who loves cricket..
4. The Mahabharata: English translation of the original ..
Its a work that never ceases to amaze me. I must have read at least 5-6 different versions by various authors but there's almost always something new I learn. This is a set of pdf docs that I found here. A truly comprehensive treatment of the immortal epic and a must have for anyone who is into Indian mythology.
5. Test Cricket Lists
Thanks to a couple of great pals, I managed to get this book shipped from UK to the US and then brought to India..A must have and read for people into cricket stats.. contains virtually every stat and record that can be associated with the great game..A remarkable compendium of information and a book i will truly treasure...
6. Test match special (TMS)
A superb book mainly focusing on the legendary members of the Test match Special commentary team including John Arlott, Brian Johnston, Christopher Martin Jenkins and their exploits in the commentary box. The gaffes, laughs, highs and lows and their favorite matches and cricketers are recalled making this a quite glorious book..
7. The Kingfisher Football Encyclopaedia
Awesome photos, brilliant player profiles, match info and simulated sketches of great goals along with extraordinary trivia makes this one a highly entertaining read..
8. AIDS and HIV in perspective
A very well written guide which teaches all you need to know about the scourge of humanity. The virus itself, its actions and the way it acts is quite superbly explained. The book can be used by beginners and casual readers too without being overawed by medical terminology. The AIDS vaccine development and future of research is elucidated well too making it one of the better books I've read in this field..
1. India after Gandhi by Ramachandra Guha
I am in the process of reading it and this is one of the few books that I decided to buy without a second thought. Truly an impeccable account of modern Indian history full of fascinating information, great descriptions of the personalities who have shaped our history and overall very delightfully written. I would highly recommend this brilliant work by a man who is undoubtedly one of the most knowledgeable and erudite scholars to grace our country...
2. Indira- The biography of Indira Gandhi by Katherine Frank
A fantastic book. Indira Gandhi has for long been a name that is associated with intrigue, controversy, amazement and what not. This work really does help one get to understand the great lady and know more about her political career and personal life. Very well researched and written.
3. Head on-The autobiography of Ian Botham
Ian Botham's autobiography. What could be more interesting for a die hard cricket fan? Botham's achievements and genius together with his antics on and off field including the numerous controversies and allegations make for a riveting read..a book I would definitely suggest for anyone who loves cricket..
4. The Mahabharata: English translation of the original ..
Its a work that never ceases to amaze me. I must have read at least 5-6 different versions by various authors but there's almost always something new I learn. This is a set of pdf docs that I found here. A truly comprehensive treatment of the immortal epic and a must have for anyone who is into Indian mythology.
5. Test Cricket Lists
Thanks to a couple of great pals, I managed to get this book shipped from UK to the US and then brought to India..A must have and read for people into cricket stats.. contains virtually every stat and record that can be associated with the great game..A remarkable compendium of information and a book i will truly treasure...
6. Test match special (TMS)
A superb book mainly focusing on the legendary members of the Test match Special commentary team including John Arlott, Brian Johnston, Christopher Martin Jenkins and their exploits in the commentary box. The gaffes, laughs, highs and lows and their favorite matches and cricketers are recalled making this a quite glorious book..
7. The Kingfisher Football Encyclopaedia
Awesome photos, brilliant player profiles, match info and simulated sketches of great goals along with extraordinary trivia makes this one a highly entertaining read..
8. AIDS and HIV in perspective
A very well written guide which teaches all you need to know about the scourge of humanity. The virus itself, its actions and the way it acts is quite superbly explained. The book can be used by beginners and casual readers too without being overawed by medical terminology. The AIDS vaccine development and future of research is elucidated well too making it one of the better books I've read in this field..
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Random few years...
Life has truly come full circle in the last 4 years or so..you might hear many people saying this but in my case the veracity of this statement is all too obvious..I was going through a fairly normal life of an engineering student in Bangalore when I happened to send off a friend of mine who was leaving to the 'land of opportunities' to do his MS..He wasn't the first I had known embarking on that journey but I hadn't until then given a proper thought about this path..I later did go ahead and write the all too hyped GRE exam..The univ application process followed and I was all set to join the bandwagon of guys who had made the 'career defining' decision of going to the US..I was never the one who had planned this but things just seemed to fall in place and a rather teary few days followed before I took the British Airways flight on Dec 30, 2005..
Life in the US initially was very tough and I contemplated my decision to have gotten there in the first place..Got a great set of pals and had a wonderful time..cricket, tennis and a few short trips kept me feeling good about the whole experience..The acads were never an issue and I balanced them quite well with my endless phone calls, tennis and trips..Life couldn't have been better I thought..
I was proved wrong...life just got better and better..a fantastic trip with pals to New York and the Niagara Falls was just the beginning..I made a couple of more short trips and before I knew I was ready to come to India in Dec 2006. This was something I was definitely looking forward to right from the day I left India..played lots of cricket, went out for umpteen lunches and dinners and before I knew one month had flown by and I was ready to get back..After getting back, things got a little busy with my acads and research but not once did I miss out on the usual fun that had been the sole reason I had managed to stay in the US for a year..A fiasco followed when the brilliantly planned world cup trip failed but this was compensated for when I had a great California trip which had its fair share of highs and lows though..I decided to come to India again in July 2007 and this trip was almost fully a case of visiting the doc, taking rest and recovering after my LASIK surgery..I did make a fun filled trip with friends to Tirupati and played enough cricket..I left in late Aug very much assured of the future....again how mistaken I was!
The job situation was slowly getting tougher and tougher and I also had a very bad time with some personal issues..My research and acads didn't help me relax either and things were just getting a bit shaky. I decided to move to California around Christmas and look for a job there..After all it was the Silicon Valley..where else would a job be easier to find..?..or so i thought..There were a few interviews but none materialized.I was to blame partly for refusing to be flexible and learn up stuff..but i never was interested in coding and C/C++ was never what I wanted and this was very evident in the way I approached that portion..Later, the interview calls dried up and after a lot of problems with my thesis, I was forced to make a big decision to switch to an all course degree which I did ultimately..Financially I was taking a beating and if not for my fabulous set of pals and the amazing help they were during those trying times which I can never ever forget, I would never have managed to live there for even a few months...
I tried everything from online applications, email, phone calls, contacts and even going personally to the companies but when your time is bad, there is very little you can do is what I realized..Every day was a torture and I somehow endured the many disappointing replies I got from the companies..I did get a breather when we made a couple of trips within California and luckily for me cricket and tennis kept me going..The US seemed to have absolutely everything and was tailor made for someone who was ready to spend well... I visited many a place and dined in some great restaurants. Fantastic road trips were also something I can never forget...But I was gettin an eerie feeling that the fairytale was about to end..I finally got a job but just as I thought, there was no provision for me to work in the US but instead I had to get back to India..By then I was ready to move on in life and anything was ok..The monotony of applying and rejections had changed me so much that I had decided it was all enough!..
But it wasn't all that easy to just leave and get back..Emotionally I was so attached to all the guys around me..We shared many a common interest and I more often than not seemed to be the person everybody wanted to have around when they were bored...It seemed a bit like when I left from India..I put on a brave face but beneath that I was struggling..Emotionally, financially and almost in every sense this was a major blow..The only solace was my family back in India..If not for them I surely couldn't have made this decision of getting back..
Just as everybody tends to experience a so called culture shock when they get to the US, I had a similar one when I moved to Chennai for my job..It was not the case of not having been in India long enough or having been in the US long enough, but a considerable time in the US tends to drastically change a few and a few people very subtly..I belonged to the latter category..My expectations from people, attitude, interests, way of life were different and virtually every aspect in my day to day approach to life seemed to creating a gulf between me and people around..I did have pals but everyone were in the US and the people around me in Chennai are all nice people but its just that I have not found a single person, let alone a gang that even bears a semblance to the kind of pals I had there..People might say am being foolish in expecting that but I don't think that way..I am going through the motions and its only the Bangalore trips and time with family coupled with the memories of great times in the US that keep flooding me every so often that are keeping me going..
But I ultimately do feel its all a case of justice being done..I was never the kind who wanted to be in the US and only did make a decision to go there very late and it was more of a knee jerk reaction..So it seems all too apt that I was given a brief time there and allowed to have a quite wonderful and memorable time before being brought back to the place I belong and wanted to belong..It just that Life has gone a full circle in the last few years and I have been changed ever so subtly that I am taking and am sure will take quite a while to start feeling at home again...I don't quite know what/who can help me but do pray things change for the better soon...
Life in the US initially was very tough and I contemplated my decision to have gotten there in the first place..Got a great set of pals and had a wonderful time..cricket, tennis and a few short trips kept me feeling good about the whole experience..The acads were never an issue and I balanced them quite well with my endless phone calls, tennis and trips..Life couldn't have been better I thought..
I was proved wrong...life just got better and better..a fantastic trip with pals to New York and the Niagara Falls was just the beginning..I made a couple of more short trips and before I knew I was ready to come to India in Dec 2006. This was something I was definitely looking forward to right from the day I left India..played lots of cricket, went out for umpteen lunches and dinners and before I knew one month had flown by and I was ready to get back..After getting back, things got a little busy with my acads and research but not once did I miss out on the usual fun that had been the sole reason I had managed to stay in the US for a year..A fiasco followed when the brilliantly planned world cup trip failed but this was compensated for when I had a great California trip which had its fair share of highs and lows though..I decided to come to India again in July 2007 and this trip was almost fully a case of visiting the doc, taking rest and recovering after my LASIK surgery..I did make a fun filled trip with friends to Tirupati and played enough cricket..I left in late Aug very much assured of the future....again how mistaken I was!
The job situation was slowly getting tougher and tougher and I also had a very bad time with some personal issues..My research and acads didn't help me relax either and things were just getting a bit shaky. I decided to move to California around Christmas and look for a job there..After all it was the Silicon Valley..where else would a job be easier to find..?..or so i thought..There were a few interviews but none materialized.I was to blame partly for refusing to be flexible and learn up stuff..but i never was interested in coding and C/C++ was never what I wanted and this was very evident in the way I approached that portion..Later, the interview calls dried up and after a lot of problems with my thesis, I was forced to make a big decision to switch to an all course degree which I did ultimately..Financially I was taking a beating and if not for my fabulous set of pals and the amazing help they were during those trying times which I can never ever forget, I would never have managed to live there for even a few months...
I tried everything from online applications, email, phone calls, contacts and even going personally to the companies but when your time is bad, there is very little you can do is what I realized..Every day was a torture and I somehow endured the many disappointing replies I got from the companies..I did get a breather when we made a couple of trips within California and luckily for me cricket and tennis kept me going..The US seemed to have absolutely everything and was tailor made for someone who was ready to spend well... I visited many a place and dined in some great restaurants. Fantastic road trips were also something I can never forget...But I was gettin an eerie feeling that the fairytale was about to end..I finally got a job but just as I thought, there was no provision for me to work in the US but instead I had to get back to India..By then I was ready to move on in life and anything was ok..The monotony of applying and rejections had changed me so much that I had decided it was all enough!..
But it wasn't all that easy to just leave and get back..Emotionally I was so attached to all the guys around me..We shared many a common interest and I more often than not seemed to be the person everybody wanted to have around when they were bored...It seemed a bit like when I left from India..I put on a brave face but beneath that I was struggling..Emotionally, financially and almost in every sense this was a major blow..The only solace was my family back in India..If not for them I surely couldn't have made this decision of getting back..
Just as everybody tends to experience a so called culture shock when they get to the US, I had a similar one when I moved to Chennai for my job..It was not the case of not having been in India long enough or having been in the US long enough, but a considerable time in the US tends to drastically change a few and a few people very subtly..I belonged to the latter category..My expectations from people, attitude, interests, way of life were different and virtually every aspect in my day to day approach to life seemed to creating a gulf between me and people around..I did have pals but everyone were in the US and the people around me in Chennai are all nice people but its just that I have not found a single person, let alone a gang that even bears a semblance to the kind of pals I had there..People might say am being foolish in expecting that but I don't think that way..I am going through the motions and its only the Bangalore trips and time with family coupled with the memories of great times in the US that keep flooding me every so often that are keeping me going..
But I ultimately do feel its all a case of justice being done..I was never the kind who wanted to be in the US and only did make a decision to go there very late and it was more of a knee jerk reaction..So it seems all too apt that I was given a brief time there and allowed to have a quite wonderful and memorable time before being brought back to the place I belong and wanted to belong..It just that Life has gone a full circle in the last few years and I have been changed ever so subtly that I am taking and am sure will take quite a while to start feeling at home again...I don't quite know what/who can help me but do pray things change for the better soon...
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